The response that you can is enough for this question, but just tangentially, for curiosity's sake, I'm curious how you go there? What is it like? Is it any different from memories you have prior to incarnation (if that's how you got here)? Why do you say you avoid it? That's rather interesting - my own conception of angels and conversation with angel-kin would suppose they'd generally want to get back there ASAP unless there was a specific problem.

You say also Elysian Fields and Hades, though those are not usually terms I would associate with a JHVH-angel, if that's what you are (maybe you're an angelos not attached to him?). Not that they don't have their own reality and potentially visitable by anyone, but just saying - it's interesting that you picked up on those terms too. Anything to say about them?

Of course any/all of this may be too private. Just asking :)